The struggles Indigos face are real and often times all consuming. It is impossible to feel ok participating in the old program (school, family, religion, work) or to even be around it.
When forced to conform we feel so stressed, judged, depressed, overwhelmed, physical pain, confused, and angry that people seemingly mindlessly participate in the status quo without question, even if they are miserable and struggling themselves.
We’re told “hey that’s life,” “you can’t get anywhere without an education,” “everyone hates their job,” “get over it,” “it’s just the way it is,” etc. The most infuriating thing about being Indigo is we see how the system is broken and we know how to fix it.
However, due to our inability to participate in a sick system for long, we rarely find ourselves in a position of power to make the changes i.e. we're too new, we never get past entry level, and/or can’t get anyone else on board with us – even if they agree with us!
This is where shit starts to collapse in on us and drowns us in despair. Indigo's struggle with not being able to understand why others wouldn't want to make things easier or more logical or more advantageous for everyone? When our ideals get rejected we no longer want to be a part of the system. We want out!
We drop out. Our very being struggles to exist. We HATE school. We HATE work. We can’t take orders. We can’t comply. We can’t deal with monotony. We hate wasting our time. We don’t want to be around zombies that submit to the machine or accept it.
This is where our reputations for having a sense of entitlement comes in. “Oh, you think you’re special?” “Too cool for school?” “To good for a 9-5?” You’re goddamn right.
People (friends, significant others, parents, teachers, co-workers) can’t understand why we can’t just get with the program and just do what they have been conditioned to believe that we are supposed to do. Don’t you think if we could we would?
We aren’t like others and trust us sometimes we wish we were. It sure would be a hell of a lot easier. Sorry, we are running on the updated version of the program. Indigos trying to operate on the old version of the program struggle with complete system failure.
It feels as though we've been dropped into a foreign country with no luggage or money and don’t know the language. We want out and often don’t know how.
Everyone just keeps gesturing to us to follow the others, but we know where that leads. We’re not getting on that conveyor belt. We try to run like hell only to get jerked back by our chains from society, our parents, boss, kids, money etc.
When it feels as if we have no freedom Indigo's struggle mentally and physically. It feels like we are dying and quite frankly often times would rather be dead.
Our bodies start going into system failure. We experience completely consuming anxiety, depression, extreme exhaustion, uncontrollable rage, endless mental turmoil, nausea, and other debilitating symptoms.
All the while we see everyone else getting along seemingly fine, which stresses us out even more. Why can’t we just get on the conveyor belt?
We came here to thrive, not just to survive. We don’t want to numb ourselves out in order to comply with the old program. We know we don’t have to go where we don’t want to go (school/work) in order to get where we want to be. That notion is old programming.
Our jobs are to be our true selves and that’s it and the only way to accomplish that is by following our bliss - a delusional concept I know. Can you imagine a society where everyone is living a fulfilled joyous life? Actually, we can. We've seen the Promised Land.